A personal Psalm

This is a random post! i meant to do a lot more! ill write more about camp soon! but this is a poem i wrote..well not really its just a letter to God.

Search me oh lord and know my heart,

You see the depths of my heart and you love me the same..

How can this be?

You know my pain, you know my joy.

Tell me what to do.

Tell me who to be.

Guide me in your ways.

Have your way with my life.

I cant flee from your presence

You wont let me go.

Your love is unending.

Wrap your arms around me.

Hold me and tell me what to do.

Tell me how to please you.

Your grace is unending

Love is unconditional

Teach me to love like you.

Give me a compassionate heart

Help me be the light in a dark room

Mold my heart like a potter and clay

Help me be a lover, a wise one.

Guard me heart, for it belongs to you oh God.

The Vineyard so far...

hey friends and family!!

So i never get on the computer..we are talking one hour a week so it is hard to blog..but i would love to share whats going on here..

The first week was orientation and so i did not have campers in my cabin. i was just rooming with a girl from mexico, north carolina and columbia..they are AMAZING! we take turns at night talking about home and we learn new things about each-others culture..its soo awesome..they are so much fun.

there are about 100 staff...i would say half are french, then a ton of mexicans and then some americans. in between there is a few columbians, a german, a guy from Kazakhstan and as the summer goes on more countries keep coming. Even the Americans are foreign to me because they are very much southern..so its a complete culture shock...but it is amazing. they only thing we have in common is that we all believe in the same God. But even with that there is different views. most of the foreign staff are catholic and i have even attended a few mass's..so interesting!

i am currently teaching swimming with a guy from mexico and germany last week and this week i taught with a mexican and a french guy. On top of teaching four hours a day i have to have my campers, get to meals on time, hike up a giant hill every morning, play tag and non stop games, sing at the top of my lungs and NEVER sleep...its getting easier though and i am learning to have to be on time...which is a new idea for me. if your late to a meal everyone knows and you get publicly called out and you have to eat last...so its soo good for me. Xtina would be so proud..

well i need to go eat a meal now..and tonight we have a dance...SOOOOO FUN...french people are the best dancers everrrrrr. major dance party..

oh and no summer romance yet..(haha)

i will try to call people on mondays and sat! love you and miss you all. please pray for my health and rest and also paticnice with campers. thanks ya'll :)

sorry about the updates

Ok guys i know i have not updated in a long time. I promise for those of you who have been waiting for a new post, there will be a new one soon!!! I swear...


Hope everyone is well..


New post is on its way!

birthday weekend...crazy family time.

okay so i said i would have stories for you about when my family was home and i promissed chaos...and was there ever. okay so in my house there was me, my sister and her husband, my brother and his wife, my parents and my grandma. mind you my house is not very large..and all the personalites of italians comes out when we are all together. im pretty sure we all lost our voices that weekend. one morning i woke up to them dancing to techno..including my mother!!! so random.

dont get me wrong, i love it. it is so good to have family home we have such a good time togther and they make me laugh.

my brithday was pretty chill.i opened presents during the morning and then we all went to chinese foood(my choice of course).

then it was the wedding time! it was so freaking hot out, but the cermoney and reception was amazing! my cousin looked beautiful and a lot like barbie..ha. it was like one big dance party. my couins , my siblings and my GRANDMA got our dance on.

it was a good weekend. thank you to all who wished me a happy birthday!!

another odd event: jason barnett getting his lip peirced. so gross he did it himself and it was all bloody! yikes.
Also, my best friend katie came home from chico this weekend and we hung out and went to berkley. so much fun.

my whole family is home..that mean chaos!!!

hello everyone.

school is still going very good. i cant get over how many fun people go to las po..although school is fun im am starting to realize i have to study and do hw and not slack off like high school. grades are very important..


so oh man this weekend my family is all coming home...when my family is all here in one house it gets CRAZY. there is a lot of huge personalites in one house. and two couples...and then theres me. haha. its like italian personalites times a million!


i also have my cousins wedding which should be fun and my 19th birthday on sunday!!! yay! so it is a closing of my 18th year which was a great one! i feel like a really grew up this year. im looking forward to my 19th year. gosh that sounds old and like an awkward age. i hope its good though.

ill write about my weekend with the fam next. im sure there will be stories!

school is good :]

my first day was awesome!

i loved it to my suprise...i had a fun dance class and they all ready made me start dancing on the first day and let me just add that i was wearing really tight skinny jeans because i didnt think they would make me dance on the first day...and boy i was wrong! we had to do ballet moves in my TIGHT JEANS...lesson learned.

i saw lots of fun faces from people from vbc which made me happy :)

sociolgy was sooo interesting and i am so pumped for that class and english was well...just funny..lets just say my teacher was a little out of it, and acted as what some students siad ,"baked" haha..

over all a great day :)

school in one day! it better not be like high school...

just thought i would say again that i am pumped for school and learning tommarow....i hope las positas isnt miserable. i checked out the campus today and it does not seem to bad. i hope it does not feel like high school..

i got my goodbye with katie over with and it was pretty peaceful. we had a sleep over and talked all night till 5 in the morn..we had some catching up to do. haha.

if you are reading this, it would be awesome if you could pray for me and my school year coming up. i need to be really motivated so i can transfer in two years and that i can make some new friends! thanks!

random thought: i was reading a Planted Earth book today and it changed my life. i encourage everyone to check out that book! its amazing! it blows my mind how God created such an incredible earth. gosh he is creative. i decided i am fasinated with geography. and i cant wait to travel and discover some portion of it.

second random thought: im learning more about the subject of human trafficing and it is just so sad. so many people dont know about it; or the fact that some of it goes down in the US.. it is so unfortunate for children and young women. to learn more about this subject you can check out HUMANTRAFFICING.ORG.

peace.